My best choice

Becoming good friends with the guys, made me change my looks i actually tried to look good for once. So at that point on, I had good friends and was happy. But when i started to be less careful around my Dad and at school, with the smoking ... It became another problem to my list.

First off, i got caught at school, with dope. Got suspended. My dad didn't do anything. He just thought that I wasn't going to do it again and that it was a mistake. But i knew it, I new that it was apart of me, that i wasn't going to let it go. I could, but I didn't think i should, and didn't want too.

Back to school, they're watching me like crazy. I was skipping lots of classes, not wanting to go just wanting to get high. Lots of classes missed ... another suspension because of too much skipping. Suspension, suspension, suspension. I was lost I wanted something new, the girls and I decided to try out something new. Coke? Yup that was are smart idea. Coke, its be on a lot of things, its crazy no?. Well we did it, it was amazing I'm happy that at least we promised to do it only that once. .... I was still doing my ritual, even with all the suspensions and my dad struggling, thinking it was all because of him that I was turning out that way. And me telling my self it was the best choice ever. Best choice ever! Yup that's what i was telling my self. ......

My best friend my first friend was also a smoker, and she had a boy friend who she was always with, I was missing her, my old good friend my only old good friend. Then she toled me I found a guy, he wants to meet you his HOT his great, do you want to meet him? I said of course! This guy was HOT and he smoked dope, he was at my school and he was older :) ..After meeting him, and seeing him after a couples weeks. He ended up being my first real boy friend. After debating on him and this other guy that was crushing on me and that I was also crushing on. But I thought deeply he was the one to pick. He was amazing. THAT WAS MY BEST CHOICE that I had made in a long time. I had a great caring, wonderful, beautiful, boy friend. Life was pretty great! ..... Still doing my ritual of course,then I thought, keep it low stop skipping so much go down on the dope. I had made that decision thinking Stephane-my boy friend,would like me better, being less of a rebel, and a little more of a good girl. I try ed hard, it was tuff but got better. And then, I was realizing that my boy friend Stephane was becoming, what I called my everything.

ps: Merry Christmas♥