I'm setting my mind to not touch any drugs and smokes ever again.
Meaning I'm done. I'm quiting! Last time I say it. I promise you that. Last time I promise myself that too. I know I can do it. My heart is telling me I can. I just need to fight every instinct I got towards it. And to keep my distances from friends and peoples, I know that will influence and pressure me as hard as they can, to get me to do it '' one last time '' No there not going too. I'm going to stay back. And know that if I do get pressured to say NO. I know I can, and will. And I got people telling me I can do anything if I set my mind to it. And if I believe I can succeed. And there's so much of them supporting me. If I can't take it at one point I know I can go to them and ask to talk me threw it.
I've been looking for the best time to quit. Looking for the time I have the most faith in myself to do so. Looking to have something to tell myself, when I've quit for real that there's something SPECIAL WONDERFUL AMAZING waiting for me. And there's going to be !
I'll let you know what is waiting for me real soon. ♥
Your honesty and transparency are fantastic!
ReplyDeleteAnd stick with it...I know what it's like to try kicking the bad habits that you're used to leaning on, and it's a tough road. But keep at it! I promise it's worth it in the end.
<3 Leanne, Mel's roomie
PS - I get all my pictures off random searches through google images lol
Thx :)
ReplyDeleteIt is hard. But I'm going to be strong and succeed :) It is definetly worth it in the end. And I can't wait for it to be that time.
... Mel's toled me how great you are! I know you are just by your writing!
Your good at searching on google then, haha I never find good ones:p.
Jess :)
your both sooo beautiful- insinde. out. !!! and i love you both so muchhh! mel -sister and roomie- the best of both worlds! :)
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